Discretion

“He never labored so hard to learn a language as he did to hold his tongue, and it affected him for life. The habit of reticence-of talking without meaning-is never effaced.” -Henry Adams

Social media is hard. We have a constant stream into people’s daily lives. We have access to people like never before. I’ve literally had to delete social media from my phone so many times I’ve lost count.

One reason I delete it is because of the obsessive quality of it. How many times a day do I pick up my phone out of habit, realizing I’m not looking for anything specific? (Too many to count). How much more often do I feel discontent with the material possessions I own when my ads are constantly being catered to things I prefer? (I’m ashamed to admit).

Another reason I gave to take myself away from it occasionally is because I find I don’t like knowing everything persons say or do all day. I can’t even tell you how many people I’ve had certain feelings towards, to only have those feelings confirmed or denied by things they said or did on social media. (I’m sure people have said the same about me). Discretion is something I’ve been trying (sometimes unsuccessfully) to practice on social media myself. It’s not easy, so when I struggle I have to practice discipline to take myself away from it.

I have always judged people by their actions…and I’m talking actions when no one else is around. How do you treat people who can do nothing for you? How do you act when there is no group of people to put a show on for? What takes up most of your thoughts and conversations? I always prefer people in small groups as a way to get to know them better on a real scale.

Not everything (and actually most) deserves a response. You are responsible for your actions no matter how you feel. (This is something I tell my kids as soon as they can understand the thought). People’s lives generally play out in the way they are any way. (We don’t need to be the sounding judge).

I enjoy good, thought provoking conversations, debates, and arguments. I legitimately have no problem getting into debates with persons on most any subject. (I also like to think I’ve gotten better at admitting when I’ve been had). Husband, we don’t need your input. 😜

We are the first generation learning to deal with social media. I love it for so many reasons, but my disdain becomes just as prevalent some days too. Let’s all practice more discretion and more love. (I’m with you ✌🏻).

I want to remember the hard and ugly, not just easy and pretty.

Lately I’ve felt a stronger pull to live in the moment more. Our community has lost persons in it recently. I’ve read about things on news pages about lives lost at young ages. I’ve really felt the shortness of life being emphasized around me.

It’s not that we don’t know it deep down, but at certain times of life events bring it more to the forefront. I’ve seen posts about wanting to savor moments when kids have done something cute, or are wearing something cute, basically anything good that people want to remember. I get it as well. I want to remember the good times all the time. Those are the memories that keep us a little bit encouraged when facing hard days with them.

I want to start living in the moments that seem harder at the time as well though. The days I’ve told (and been ignored) by my one year old after telling him “no” a million times-I want to be there. The days I’m exhausted from the time I wake up until my head hits the pillow at the end of the day-I want to be there. The days my girls fight nonstop and I feel like all I’ve done is referee-I want to be there. The days I feel like I’ve done nothing but keep my kids alive-yep, I want to be there too.

I don’t want to just live for the good moments. I want to be an active participant in every part of my life. Why? Because it all serves a purpose. When my one year old does finally listen to that “no”, it emphasizes how important the incessant “no’s” were. The days I wake up exhausted, I know it’s because I’m busy with little people who are some of the most important to me in this world. The days my girls fight and are forced to make amends, relationship is being built. (You can’t have two divas in the same house and it expect arguments to occur while living in close quarters). The days my only accomplishment is keeping them alive is reason to celebrate-because it’s no easy task.

Another reason I don’t want to wish any day away is because I’m not promised rainbows and butterflies throughout life, let alone try to plan it so that’s what I get right before anything bad ever were to happen. Life doesn’t only have purpose when it’s easy. Life doesn’t only have purpose when it looks good. Every moment has purpose because you were given it to live in. In James 4 we’re reminded that life is a vapor. We don’t know what tomorrow holds. We’ve got today, and regardless of the circumstances, I want to be all in.

We don’t live life with only today in mind. A life lived for the short term, in any aspect, isn’t very encouraging. You can’t spend money without thought for tomorrow. I mean, you could but it’d probably get you into some monetary issues. We don’t think of our diet in terms of today. We don’t gorge ourselves daily because we would careless about the long term. The good and the bad total up the sum of your life-and it all has value. Let’s not forget there is purpose in moments of adversity as well.

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired, and success achieved”. -Helen Keller